March 4, 2021

The Last Color

 'The Last Color' is a canvas depicting the colourless lives of the protagonists, presented in a bichrome of white and gulabi (Indian pink/fuschia) — their innocence simplicity and emotions, all pure as white — their dreams, aspirations, emotions coveting to be clad in the gulabi, the bright, bold tone symbolising perhaps, the bold dreams that the meek white and the colourless seek to (and dare to) dream of...embrace against the odds of a set up, a society that has long decided that their likes be devoid of colour.


The film unfolds in flashback and traces the lives of its protagonists — a Hindu widow, a Dalit street urchin, a brutalised eunuch, and a continually berated wife — all walking the tight rope of dereliction, penury, and abuse that society has relegated them to.  'The Last Colour' in its not so subtle depiction of depravity is also a tale of the infant new world enkindling hope in bright "gulabi" hues into the lives long deprived of them.

Chhoti (the nine-year-old Dalit urchin uninhibited and emboldened by life's injustices) and her unlikely friendship with Noor (the gracious, shy, white-clad widow, depicted in all her innocence); Chintu, (Chhoti’s nine-year old best friend, the real 'man', whose dreams circle around sending Chhoti to school; his love so pure, writ large in his eyes, his expression) and Anarkali, (the oft brutalised eunuch with the heart warming motherly endowments on Chhoti) are all endearing beyond description. While all these characters are dissimilar on the surface, they are tied together with a common thread. Their bond emanates a warmth, honesty, and spontaneity that resonate with the viewer. Their affections keep the torch of hope alight in the face of the all-pervasive darkness that threatens to drown them at all times. So does the silent endurance of the wife whose personal hell encourages her to ensure a better future for 'her' daughters and emboldens her reluctance to beget a son for fear of bringing a brute into the world.

The film is essentially a comment on the ancient tradition of abandoning widows in Varanasi to fend for themselves and die, weathered by societal norms and customs. It references the Supreme Court of India’s landmark judgement in August 2012 that sought the rehabilitation and empowerment of Hindu widows, following which they celebrated their first Holi in March 2013. Thus, lending a positivity to the scenario, and a much required iteration to the judgement.

Subtle and soulful, this screen adaptation of Celebrity Chef Vikas Khanna’s novel ‘The Last Color’ (directed by Khanna himself), is an iteration that filmmaking is also about making the canvas look appealing to the eye while bringing home what's not so gentle to the heart and surely is unsettling to the brain. The film is loaded with great optimism; its mellow-starkness vibrating the right chords that culminate in Khanna's beautiful invocation of Tagore’s iconic poem, “Where the mind is without fear and the head is held high…”, as the end credits begin to roll.

Painted thus, at the same time, in bold colours and subtle hues that together uphold the truth about human vices and virtues, in all its might, ‘The Last Color’ has every quality of pure cinema that can endure the test of time. It makes a point quite convincingly that filmmaking is not just about making things big and grand by being presented in all starkness. Khanna treats his protagonists with rare subtlety and sensitivity, lending the feel and flavor of an unrehearsed spontaneity to them. Their heartwarming relationships serve to liberate them from their sorrows yet keep them grounded. He extracts genuine emotions out of the actors, and in turn, of the viewers, emphasizing through it all, the value of life and the preciousness of every breath.

February 24, 2021

Rubber Duck Debugging

I recently came across this interesting debugging technique named 'Rubber Duck Debugging'. The name is a reference from the book 'The Pragmatic Programmer' by Andrew Hunt and David Thomas, in which a programmer is able to debug a code by explaining it line-by-line, to a rubber duck.

Though this was not exactly an 'Aha! effect' for me, it did set some curious nerve tingling, prompting me to read on and ponder over it.

“A very simple but particularly useful technique for finding the cause of a problem is simply to explain it to someone else… They do not need to say a word: the simple act of explaining, step by step, what the code is supposed to do often causes the problem to leap off the screen and announce itself.”

Verbalizing our assumptions, forces an evaluation from different perspectives and can provide a deeper understanding of the problem because it forces us to pay attention to detail. As a result, we may immediately gain some new insight into the problem.

So is the case with teaching a subject. Teaching a concept to another person (or even "the Rubber Duck") is one of the most effective ways to grasp it. One may then say, "a coworker might be able to substitute for the duck". However, many a times teaching a rubber duck may be more useful than explaining to a colleague, because suggestions from a colleague may lead to distractions or digressions, making it harder to solve the problem. Hence, the 'Rubber Duck'.

The technique touches on the cognitive science behind this phenomenon. When we think to ourselves, our brain is locked in a symbolic representation mode of thinking and uses only single sets of neural pathways and neural processes. This tends to keep us in a repetitive mode, leading us into a loop. Instead, if we actually say it out loud, this activates entirely different regions of the brain, taking totally different pathways. So, saying something out loud is more impactful than just running it over in the head.

Evaluating from different perspectives gives us a better/deeper understanding. This is why, when we’re trying to learn something difficult or complex, activating as many different neural pathways as we possibly can, helps strengthen memory and establish connection with the concept. This is why hand-writing notes is more effective than just simply listening or typing them.

And this brings us back to the Rubber Duck Debugging concept (or simply, Rubber Ducking)! By explaining things out loud, we’re not only using different sets of pathways and processes in the brain, but also filling in the gaps in our reasoning and assumptions. Thus the act of explaining the problem step by step, to the 'Duck', makes the solution present itself. The concept can be extrapolated and applied to other tasks such as revising for exams, preparing presentations and editing essays. Reading an essay out loud, for instance, can help one decide whether the sentences are grammatically correct and whether the essay flows well.

Here's to teaching rubber ducks!


May 4, 2020

आज यूँ ही

आज यूँ ही बैठे बैठे याद उनकी चली आयी है।
फिर मुसकुराहट वो प्यारी लौटी है,
फिर आँख मेरी भर आयी है।
यूँ तो नज़र में रहता है उनका चेहरा हर पहर,
बात भी दिल में होती है उनसे शाम सहर।
मग़र आज शायद बात कुछ ख़ास हो आयी है,
ज़िक्र उनका कुछ ख़ास हुआ है दिल की गहराई में
जो आज यूँ ही बैठे बैठे याद उनकी चली आयी है।
फिर मुसकुराहट वो प्यारी लौटी है,
फिर आँख मेरी भर आयी है।
आँख मेरी भर आयी है।।

February 14, 2020

ये अधूरा सा जहाँ

तुमसे बिछड़े हम जो कल, मिल सकें फिर कहाँ।

साथ बीते थे जो पल, अब नहीं, पर कशिश उनकी बाक़ी है।
साथ बीते थे जो, कुछ पल, चाह उनकी अब भी बाक़ी है।
महक साथ बीते हुए हर पल की, हर तरफ़ बाक़ी है।

पर हो नहीं जो इसमें तुम, है अधूरा बहुत ये जहाँ!
तुमसे बिछड़े हम जो कल, मिल सकें फिर कहाँ।

परे हमसे बहुत हो तुम, है अधूरा बहुत ये जहाँ!

June 7, 2019

Our Sun -- An Elegy


Cold!
Cold was thy brow to touch,
No warm hand anymore,
For us to clutch!

No sun did set,
Nor rose a moon.
We came to thee but
Thou hath left er too soon!

We grope for thee,
Oh, Thou art gone!
Er we saw,
Thou had passed on!

All hope dashed
It's now just tears
Unhealed hearts,
For years...and years!

Oh, come back Thee!
We pine, we long.
Come sing to us
Just one more song!

Sweet smiles no more.
No more thy touch!
No warm hand
For us to clutch!

No light anymore
No peace, just tears.
No light anymore
Our Sun, thou hast set!

September 22, 2017

Back to my safe haven!

"Back to my safe haven...the home sweet home...at last!" [sigh]  Safe from all that traffic coughing out clouds upon clouds of choking pollutants now.
Let's get on ahead with the evening. A quick shower and a spray of the favorite body deodorant...feeling oh so fresh!
Hmm...it is the turn to appease the taste buds next...let's see...health eating of course! Stir-fried mixed vegetables and...Ahh! Now that was some meal....burp! Sorry!
TV time...must know what's going on the world over. How about creating the right atmosphere to uplift the mind and body? Some room spray and a few drops of the aroma oil in the t-light dispenser, and let's do away with the last of the fatigue into the thin air...Wow!
In the favorite recliner...in the folds of the "Oh! so soft" comforter, hugging the favourite cushion TV remote in the hand...let's change this nail paint. Mmmm look at those pretty hands and toes!
Yawn...it's 2AM! Must have dozed off. Time to hit the bed. Zzzzz...snore.
Rinnggg! Ah! Ahh! God! This headache. Must have some coffee...Oh! Can't seem to get up...the body feels oh so bashed up...10 AM! Must have dozed off again. So late for office! Office...if only the aching body would move and the head didn't feel so heavy! Trinngggg...someone's phone's ringing somewhere. Trinngggg...Trrinngggg...Oh! Why don't the take the call! Trinngggg...Trrinngggg..it is somewhere near...my phone!

"Hello."
"Where are you? Have not come to office, not been taking calls all day!"
All day! What time is it? 5 PM! Oh! Slept all day!

"I'm feeling so exhausted...bashed up...my head is pounding and feels leaden. Donno where the day went!"
"You seem to be down with flu."
Let me get the doctor to you.

"Flu it is."
"Flu?! But doctor she eats so healthy...how can it be!"
Well...let's go around this house, shall we?

Here's your must-do and don'ts list...add on to it as and when.
Daily:
1 Take out the garbage at night.
2. Rinse out the dishes before leaving them in the sink and wipe the slab and floor.
3. Keep all mops in the open (dried in the sun/fresh air).
4. No aerosol spray (deo) cans...if unavoidable, use. CFC free cans.
5. Remove and apply nail paint sitting on the balcony (open-air).
6. Use natural substances to repel insects. (No commercial cockroach etc killers/repellents.)
7. Keep flowering plants on the balcony.
8. Keep windows/doors open while lighting candles/incense etc.

 For the weekend:
1. Remember to sun up the extra linen, clothes, and all room curtains... and air out the closets, the bathroom, and the rooms.
 2. Avoid cooking gas leakage by cleaning gas stove burners regularly and using a well-functioning gas lighter.

"But doctor..."

"These are some ways to keep your home air free of pollution. Many of us feel/think we keep our home clean, but little do we realize that some of these cleaners pollute the air in our home in their own way....through smoke, carbon residue, mold, fungus, pollen, chlorofluorocarbon to name a few. And, you will be surprised to know that the air inside our homes can be as much as five times more polluted than the polluted outdoors air."
Dazed!

"Need a silver line on this grey cloud? Paint your walls with a miracle called 'asianpaints rõyale Atmos' and make your home your real safe haven.

"A paint, doctor! How can a paint help?" Puzzled.

"Not 'a' paint. It is THE one-of-its-kind paint with the magic of keeping your home air, pollution-free. Low VOC rõyale Atmos from Asianpaints with its Active Carbon technology improves air quality by absorbing harmful pollutants such as formaldehyde. Being malodorous, it absorbs select foul smells. And as a bonus, releases a pleasant fragrance for weeks after your walls are painted.
It even helps your green footprint be bigger with its promise of Green Assure. There is so much more to it. What more could you possibly ask for!

August 1, 2015

A history buried unrecorded.

Our Moon Has Blood Clots: A Memoir of a Lost Home in Kashmir - A Review

The Memoir by Rahul Pandita, is a tale less told, that deserves much telling!

It needs much telling, in fact, to complete a picture, one aspect of which we have all (well, most of us) missed, or sought for and not found. The aspect none in the valley lets you in on...the tale there's none in the valley to tell - The tale of the mass exodus and genocide of the Pandits from Kashmir valley. One million Kashmiri Pandits!

The story as told by a boy in a refugee camp, brings forth glimpses of how the race that left its homes and hearths and riches all behind, fends for its daily sustenance, in the paucity, rather absence even of the basic necessities of cleanliness and cover. His 'sharing of half a tomato with another boy, as their share of vegetable distribution for the day, for these 'refugees' to bring home and cook for the family', is heart breaking!
Pandita's deeply personal observation and unforgettable accounts of the scattered dreams and families, of lost identities and homes...and families; and the still alive slivers of hopes of rehabilitation and being reconciled to the homeland and the identities, are no less heart wrenching than the brutal murders and rapes and kidnappings and treachery meted out to this race, for its 'brethren' of yore sought ethnic cleansing. Their hearts icier than the snow they colored in gore!

25 years since, and this receding of an entire 'people' into oblivion in the name of Jihad, still seeks to come out into the light of the day, garbed as is with its faran (robe) still reeking fresh of the communal stain that has oft been blanketed under mantles ranging from ignorance to complacence (deliberate or unconscious) to conspiracy theories, on the part of the intellectuals, the media, the intelligentsia...the country!

Rahul Pandita's was one among thousands of Kashmiri Pandit families forced to leave their homes in Srinagar, in 1990, when he was 14 years old. His first hand account of the travails of his family and his kin is a window into the annals of the history of Kashmiri Pandits.

November 27, 2014

बेवफ़ा उसे न कहो


ये और बात है, के लगता आज बेपरवाह  है वो,
के हवा दी थी उसी ने, इन मुहब्बत के जज़्बों को।

आज उसके किये वादे की कीमत कुछ नहीं है तो,
दिलबर था वो मेरा, अब बुरा उसे न कहो।

के याद मुझे करके, रोता है तन्हाई में वो,
यकीन नहीं है ग़र, तो चलो फ़र्ज़ ही कर लो।

के अपनी किन्हीं मजबूरियों का क़ैदी है वो,
साथ छोड़ गया है मेरा, तो बेवफ़ा उसे न कहो।

बहुत मुश्किल है मिटाना दाग़, दिल हो या दमन हो,
न दाग़ बेवफाई का, दो उसके दमन को।